
a novel about cultural identity, the power of reconciliation, and the meaning of home

Flicker Vertigo
Two old pilots play chess in the park,
hearing aids off, cataract eyes
unable to track disturbances
in an air of newsreel memories.
Contrails corkscrew
toward animals cringing in fur
like dowagers in a bad neighborhood,
and glint struck off a propeller tells a story
begun far from here. It's a parable made luminous
with silver nitrate and dust, about their wars,
when charged images flicked past too fast to register.
Information received at 15 spins/second
always condenses thought to pudding,
ricochets off the exits
under the perpetual threat of fire.
A riffle of stills, too, can fool the eye
into a perception of continuous motion;
the brain fills in what’s missing,
the blanks between light and light,
a corrugated sky hanging over
the theater’s false ceiling. It's where
wounds still bloom, where a pounding
in the temple calls up fists full of summer poppies
pushing through the scarred gray crust of winter.
Nela and Ranu looked out on a passing parade of decorated cattle, horns painted and covered with shining metal caps. Multi- colored beads, tinkling bells, sheaves of corn and flower garlands surrounded their necks. “It is Mattu Pongal,” the girl declared. “End of winter!”
“It is why we take oil baths,” Nela told her. The girl cocked her head. She had only learned the ritual, not the origins. Nela said, “Once Shiva asked his bull, Basava, to go to the earth and ask the mortals to have an oil bath every day and to eat once a month. But Basava made a mistake. He announced that everyone should eat daily and have an oil bath once a month! Shiva banished Basava to live on earth forever. He would have to plough the fields. This is why we appreciate him.”
Something, a detail, the half-glimpsed gesture, a particular scent perhaps, caught Nela’s attention just then. She did not answer Ranu’s stream of questions about the bull, but scanned the scene before her, narrowing her eyes to sharpen her vision. Nearly lost among the commotion of lowing beasts, shouting vendors, and rickshaws, she saw a disheveled man slumped in a chair. He was stirring his drink as if that small motion took all of his strength. His skin, waxy and hanging like steamed folds of fabric, looked feverish even from a distance. Nela’s body recognized him before her brain remembered his name. Gooseflesh rose on her arms.